November 29, 2011

my hope is in You, Lord, all the day long!

An overwhelming amount has happened since I’ve last updated… it seems like most weeks I’m on a never ending emotional roller coaster ride just trying to hang on for dear life… but don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy a good roller coaster ride! :)

This semester has been quite strange. I’ve left everyone and everything I love in Norman, Oklahoma to start a new chapter of my life back in my hometown. Trying to be an adult (somewhat) in a place my childhood memories are deeply rooted has proven to be quite the combination of complicated & fabulous. I love the sense of familiarity and the peace my heart feels while eating dinner with my family on a random Tuesday night. Yet at the same time, I feel like a piece of my heart is about 150 miles up the highway where Crimson is the best looking color on everyone!

For those who don’t know, I have desired to be a dental hygienist since about my sophomore year in high school and I have never really strayed away from that goal. As the Lord has grown my heart and ignited a fire in me to physically be His hands & feet, I have become passionate about nonprofit organizations and would not be too devastated if I ever found myself working for a nonprofit in the future! :) As for now, I’m pursuing my dream of being an oral healthcare provider.


[disclaimer: please don't judge our techniques. we're still learning :) ]


I could ramble on and on about dental hygiene school for hours. As one would expect… there are great days, days full of tears, times when I second guess if this profession is really what God has for me, moments of sheer panic where I am positive there’s no way I will ever remember all this information to pass my boards in two years!! Yet the most beautiful and profound moments are when I feel the Holy Spirit captivate my heart and say, “yes, Callyn, you were made for this very thing. You were made to restore, heal, teach, encourage, and bring the Everlasting light to the dental office” The Lord has held me close this semester, He stills my frantic heart and brings peace, His grace sustains me, and the hope He gives keeps me pressing onward. By His goodness, I’m still trucking along and my confidence is growing every day!

I have desperately wanted to update for over a month, I just can’t seem to find the time to fully process my thoughts. I have all of these thoughts swirling in my head and they quickly get suppressed when I think about the stacks of books on my desk that are just calling my name to be opened and carefully read.

So now, this little hunter green scrubs wearing girl has a test and quiz tomorrow but my heart and mind are elsewhere. I cannot seem to quit thinking about the Susan G. Komen Breast Cancer 3day for the Cure. Perhaps it’s because I never updated and never really put my thoughts on “paper” or if it’s because I still am waiting for my last check to process or maybe I just cannot believe that we are approaching a year since Jesus welcomed Stephanie into Heaven.

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